Aapke Baad- Ek kavita

Jis subah aapko yaad nahin karenge
Jis shaam aapka naam nahin lenge
Us din se hoga yeh ahsaas
Ki aap nahin hain ab humare aas paas

Lekin tab tak kya karein yeh dil?
Kaise savrein? Kaise sambhlein?
Kaise yaad karein woh pyaar bhari nazarein?
Kaise bhoolayen woh guhm bharein nagme?

Humari rooh mein aap ho samaye
Humare zehn mein ho sada shamil
Har ek nagme mein hai aapki yaad
Har ek saans karti hai yeh farman

Ki aapki kahani na kabhi ho khatam
Aapki ghazalon mein doobe har mehfil
Aapki muskarahaton ka no ho koi qatil

Pur ab hum toot se gayein hain
Ab toh ijazzat de do
Chalo jaon, aur le jaon
Apni kahaniyan, apni ghazalein, apni muskurahatein

Chod do humein tanha
Aapke bina jeene ki aadat dalne do
Aakhir, saayon ke saath nahin guzarti yeh zindagi

Breaking Down- a poem

You broke me like no storm could

You crushed me like no fist dared

You pierced me like no arrow before

You hurt me tons more than the tons of bricks before you

You burnt me like no fire did, though several did attempt

I thought I would rise like a Phoenix from the ashes

But even a Phoenix has a breaking point

Before it revives and is reborn

Erasing Memories

I can't write you off the books yet

Or weave you in my life story

You are like that word that keeps reappearing

Sometimes completely out of context

My vocabulary has absorbed you

Like a term used daily

Was there ever a lexicon in my life

Where your name was not present?

May be your definition has changed

Or your meaning has lost its relevance?

Like an oft-repeated but old phrase

That's not kept up with the times

You like an Oxward dictionary word

That can't be searched up on urban dictionary

A single word with two different meanings

One which represents the past, and one that's alive today

My memory of your name is a lilting melody

A sensuous sound that easily rolls off my tongue

The word today sounds bitter, harsh even

Why then can't I banish it from my language?

I wish to erase your name, like words written on sand

That wash away with one tiny wave

That dissolve into nothingness

Without a trace, like they had never existed.